I’ve done two really, really good things for myself recently.

#1 – I deactivated my facebook account. I’m fairly certain that this is something anyone would benefit from. You would be amazed at how much time it frees up. Not only the time that is spent actually on facebook, but the time spent thinking about facebook and the things I saw on it. Now I have that time to spend on myself and the people around me in real life.  Crazy, huh?

#2 – I read Journey of Souls by Michael Newton.

I’m about to get a little weird. Maybe too weird for some of you. I read a decent amount of books. Always non-fiction, self-help type books. I wouldn’t be caught dead with 50 Shades of whatever. Usually I read about business, personal growth/development, health and nutrition. It isn’t very often that I find a book life-changing. I couldn’t really even tell you the last time I picked up a real “page-turner.” A book that I couldn’t put down because I so needed to read it at that very point in time. The last time this happened was probably a few-ish years ago when I read The End of Overeating by David Kessler. This time its Journey of Souls. Call me cheesy all you want, but these are books that have actually changed that way I think about myself and my life and the world around me.

If you aren’t familiar with me or my story, let me recap really quickly. I struggled with weight and eating issues pretty much my whole life. I came across The End of Overeating a few years ago and it was a turning point for me as far as that goes. I’ve since lost about 40 pounds from my highest weight, kept it off, become a Certified Clinical Nutritionist, and take great value in my health and sharing my knowledge on the topic with others. More recently, I’m having a little bit of difficulty finding my place in life and have labeled it a quarter-life crisis. It’s been going on for a while now and I’m pretty sick of it. I’ve tried all sorts of crazy things to figure it out but none of them have really worked. So I’ve kind of moved out of the reckless outward search (as seen here) and am trying to find the answer from the inside out. I’m working on my attitude about the whole thing in an effort to move forward and find what I’m looking for and what I need deep down.

Enter my Mother’s bookshelf. I was sitting by the fireplace the other night trying to warm up by the fire. Something brought me over to the fireplace where I found my Mom’s books on souls in the afterlife, past life regression and hypnotherapy. My  mother has done it a couple of times and she is really into it. I’m pretty against organized religion but I’ve always considered myself to be a spiritual person. I’ve always believed in an afterlife and that people have souls and soulmates but never really looked into it further than that.  I picked up Journey of Souls and just started reading. I couldn’t stop. I finished the book in less than 24 hours. This book was like a missing link for me. It answered questions that I have always had but never really thought to ask. And it came at just the right time – when I’m seriously wondering why I am going through what I’m going through and what the hell I’m doing. What’s the freaking point?

Well the point is that I am here for a purpose. We all are. We’re here to learn the lessons that we chose for ourselves. It isn’t all laid out for us – we still have free will to choose whatever we want in this life. But the main events, the big stuff, the major players in our lives? They are all meant to be there. We planned and chose them before we got here because they can teach us lessons that our souls need and want to learn. The big troubles are decided in advance to feed your soul to learn and grow and overcome. Weird, right? It kinda makes my brain hurt.

So none of it is meaningless. You are here to accomplish something. So am I. I don’t know what it is yet but that is the point. I chose this body and this life to give me a chance to figure it out and push my limits – whichever way I want. To learn the lessons that I couldn’t learn before. To fix the mistakes made in past lives. To even out the good with the bad. It all makes so much sense. And in reality, it makes life on earth less scary. Not easier, but more understandable. Instead of doubting everything around me, I can trust it. Wow, that feels good. And it makes me feel just a little more prepared to handle whatever comes my way. If I sound crazy and delusional, you are free to stop reading my blog 🙂  But if not, I definitely recommend  reading the book.